So I tried to be super gentle with the software and decided to just run R for a while , not Rstudio. R did have permission to install packages so what I'm doing now is whenever I need to install a package I so it from R, then I just use the library to bring it up to Rstudio.
Another nice thing I did Ia changing the Rprofile so tidy verse automatically install itself and I get a really nice and warm welcome when I Restart a session in RStudio 
I Guess for the other googlers in the future, to sum things up:
Just install.packcages through R and then library() them in R studio. Permission s differ and it solved my problem